Starting over again. I feel like this is deja vu. Or perhaps groundhog's day.
So what was it this time? Well, I decided to visit my old weight loss blog. I had previously lost close to 100 lbs through weight watchers and exercise. On this blog, I found someone I barely recognized and I don't mean just physically. That person was younger. Brighter. More enthusiastic. Happier? I wouldn't say so, but she probably was in some ways.
I had mixed emotions reading these past blog entries. I had clearly committed to being that thin, healthy, highly-active individual for life. However, my life has changed in leaps and bounds since those days. I am no longer a graduate student. I am a professor. A tenure-track professor to be exact. While I am blessed to have such an amazing career, I do find it has added some stress to my life. In addition to this, I have had two remarkable children. I am also no longer thin, nor healthy. I am on the otherhand very active. Sometimes I wonder how it's possible to chase around my kids all day and still be so...big.
Well, I suppose this will all have to change. Life is definitely different, but I want to regain some of what I've lost and to lose some of what I have regained. I want to be a runner again. An avid runner like I used to be. The type of person that doesn't feel complete if a morning run hasn't been squeezed into the day. And this is something I have no choice to be because I have signed up to run the NYC marathon this November. The task at hand seems unsurmountable at the moment. But I am determined to do it.
So here I begin another journey which I am happy to share with all of you. I really (REALLY) hope it is the last and final time. I am just trying to take it one day at a time. Putting one foot in front of the other. Slowly but surely, I will get there.
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